The Atheist

i wanna believe in all the miracles too
i wanna believe in all the the fairy tales with you
i want the happy ever after really i do
but how can that be when i don't know if heavens true

but theses no eternity for an atheist like me

when i die is that the end no other way in
i'll never see your face again again again again babe
i want die happy ever after i want it with you
but how can that be when i don't know if heavens true

but theses no eternity for an atheist like me

when i die is that the end no other way in
i'll never see your face again again again again babe

and if you should go without me
just promise me that you will always be happy

Another type of ordinary people that I have seen

I wonder what the fuss was all about the moment you were asked to help us. I never wanted to haggle over what we gave and what you could give and what could we receive. I decided to write this because the more I think, the more I feel aggrieved.

Sorry friend, I never mean to insult your mom. But, why can't she appreciate all of these? I mean... I wont expect a "thank you" from her for what my mom and I have done. Hei, auntie, now I am talking to you. Don't you think you have gone too far? Don't you think you are being unreasonable? We fetch your son, at least 3 times for a week of schooling days and my mom was willing to put down her jobs just to wait for us after-school. Not to forget she even fetched your son until your gates. How about weekends? Don't you think your life was too easy because you don't have to waste time to get your son to parties, basketball court, social functions and a host of others?

I guess you still don't have any ideas about how your son get free tuition from a teacher right? I was the one who begged the teacher to give your son free tuition! Bitch! Of course you don't have any clues about it because WE NEVER SHOWED THAT WHEN WE HAVE DONE SOMETHING FOR OTHER PEOPLE, WE EXPECT THEM TO REPAY FOR OUR FAVOR EQUALS TO WHAT WE HAVE GIVEN LIKE YOU! I have come to my sense that never did I expect any gratitude from you!

But, how did you in turn treat us? Just a few days of following your car to back home and you have already fussed over it? You have done it to a fault!

Let's talk about other matter. I could see that your son is quite filial, but it seemed that my mom treated your son better than you. Don't you feel ashamed of yourself? Hei, that's your son. You vent your anger on him, it's ok. You don't prepare breakfast for him, it's ok. But, how could you never care about his whereabouts and what type of peoples does he mingle with? Luckily, his friend is mine. I couldn't imagine what will be the consequence if he mixes with a bunch of delinquents, you enjoy your backwash.

I expect sooner or later, you will surely air out your dissatisfaction. You did! You never appreciate people who have helped you a lot. Fine, don't ya ever hope for us to lend you helping hands anymore!

Projected Affair

And it was black tainted
Over a prison concert
Filled with daily parasites
don't tell me that you love it

I see the distance and the forgotten voice
You and I were one as a body
Once again I look at you
shattering in the pit

Throwing you today as a growing host
You can't find it anywhere else you are prosthetic
Once again I look at you
shattering in the pit

Die fast motherfucker
And bring your own visibility along
You are blood inside her
A hollow body to be cleaned inside and out
In the burial ground, I look at you
shattering in the pit

The lyrics talks about a girl whom I met not long ago. The events happened between us and the peoples around has given inspiration for me in this lyrics.